On my 20th anniversary my husband and I mutually decided to end our marriage. After my initial panic of Holy Crap did I make a mistake? How the heck am I going to pay the bills? Is this a dream? Who is Sarah? How am I going to do this? I totally hate being alone. I was terrified . Can I do this?
The answer is Hell yes! I totally have this! I could choose to let the divorce define me-or I could choose to embrace it and run full speed ahead into the sunset! I choose to use this as an amazing opportunity to find myself. Somehow I was lost along the way. I am learning to take care of myself and I am looking forward to seeing what amazing things await me in the next chapter! I am going to try new things, learn to do things on my own, and just plain live life to the max.
It has been 6 weeks since we made the decision to split and I am the happiest I have been in years. I am sad that we weren’t able to be a good husband and wife. But I am feeling pretty proud of how we are handling things as “ex’s” so far. We are determined to get along-we are done fighting. Ironically we are able to be the friends in divorce that we couldn’t be in marriage. We have learned to treat each other with the mutual respect and are communicating well- maybe for the first time. But that doesn’t change anything. People ask- Does this mean you are getting back together? The answer is No. People tell me that I am doing divorce wrong-because my version of divorce is not what people picture. I have not cut my ex out of my life. He has been my husband for 20 years we share a beautiful daughter and we will always be in each other’s life. Isn’t it better if we can all get along?
All marriages and divorces are different. This is my Story. Your’s might be different. But feel free to come along on my journey to see what happens in my amazing 2nd Chapter.
New beginnings are often disguised as painful endings- Lao Tzis