If only my Dad could see me now!

I think everyone wants to make their parents proud. I have always been a “good” kid. I would even say, I was and am- a bit of a goody goody. I know that my Dad loved me and was proud of me. But I wish he could see the self growth that I have had in the past few months since the pandemic began. During this time – I have kind of used it as a reset button to get my life in order- and work on me. I can’t fix all the terrible things around me. I only have control over myself.

The Flatirons in Boulder, Colorado

I am from Boulder, Colorado. You can take a girl out of Boulder. But you can’t take the Boulder out of the girl. For those of you who don’t know what this means- Boulder is known for it’s health nuts, holistic, natural and outdoorsy hippie types. I didn’t realize how much like this I really am. And during this pandemic and while recovering from COVID-19 – I have fully embraced this side of me.

Enjoying Nature

I have taken this time to really get into mindfulness and meditation. I started Deepak’s and Oprah’s 21 day meditation and really found it helpful. I will admit I missed many days and didn’t get the full 21 days in. 😳. But I didn’t.give up. I am now doing Deepak’s renew yourself mind, body and spirit. I think I am getting addicted to meditation and mindfulness. I now start and end my day with my meditation. I actually do the same one morning and night. I find this helps me better absorb the lesson. I love starting and ending my day in such a peaceful and relaxing way. When I find myself starting to get stressed out, I am learning to take time to meditate. What I am finding, is that the stressful parts of life that would normally send me reeling- I am better able to handle calmly and and not get as overwhelmed.. As tension rises I am learning to just relax, and be in the moment.

I want to do this- meditate by the sea.

If you are thinking- that is all fine and dandy Ms. Zen Girl. If you are thinking that you don’t have the attention or concentration to meditate. I can safely say- if I Sarah can learn to meditate -anyone can! A good friend of mine once said to me “Sarah, I don’t think I have ever seen you sit still.” That statement has always stuck with me- I had never really been aware of this about myself. But it was true. I am always fidgeting or doing something.

Always on the go- but learning to find peace wherever I am

I have tried going to centering prayer meditation classes with my Mom and Dad. I would sit there attempting to do meditation and find myself making my to do list, and getting bored and saying to myself “seriously, are we almost done? ”. Never in a million years would I think that this would be something that I would learn to love and find extremely helpful. My Dad would be so happy to see me getting peace from something that he and my Mom had introduced me to -and believed so strongly in. I believe that he is looking down on me from Heaven smiling. Who knows- maybe he is meditating 🧘‍♀️ along with me – or perhaps his spirit has been able to teach me. No matter the reason- I am grateful that I am learning how to handle the many stresses that life brings my way in a more graceful and positive way.

My parents made this part of their daily routine visiting this peaceful spot. I can see them using this time to reconnect and meditate

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4 Comments

  1. I once started Chopra and Oprah’s 21 day program, but it wasn’t the right time in my life for it. Thank you for reminding my of it! Might have to give it another go!

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  2. Yeah, I think their spirits guide us.. if even only from the seeds they planted while with us. I love and miss my mom like you do your dad. Carry on our wayward children.

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